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Is anyone out there left *not* on mood altering medication?
asking because I want in. But I want the opposite of everybody
else seems to need* . I'm sick of being on such an even
keel. Even a good bout of depression would be more exciting than
dealing with challenges - and fun times - so temperately.
I was trying to think of the last time I raised my voice in
anger. I can't even remember! And the last time I cried
over my own circumstances, it took years of build-up to set that
stage. Sure there are fun times, too, but I've lost count of the
number of times someone has asked me "why aren't you having fun?" just
because I'm sitting there, contentedly but without gregarious
Sure I'm amused to tinker with my toys, but not excited, and not fulfilled. There should be something more.
(need being defined in a purely clinical setting, by reputable
professionals who can't help it if they're stuck in an COMPOUND
CONFLICT OF INTEREST THAT GUARANTEES THEY'LL KEEP YOU ON MEDS FOREVER)
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