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Thursday, December 11, 2008


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Category: Life

Is anyone out there left *not* on mood altering medication?

I'm asking because I want in.  But I want the opposite of everybody else seems to need* .  I'm sick of being on such an even keel.  Even a good bout of depression would be more exciting than dealing with challenges - and fun times - so temperately.

Recently I was trying to think of the last time I raised my voice in anger.  I can't even remember!  And the last time I cried over my own circumstances, it took years of build-up to set that stage.  Sure there are fun times, too, but I've lost count of the number of times someone has asked me "why aren't you having fun?" just because I'm sitting there, contentedly but without gregarious expression.

Sure I'm amused to tinker with my toys, but not excited, and not fulfilled.  There should be something more.

* (need being defined in a purely clinical setting, by reputable professionals who can't help it if they're stuck in an COMPOUND CONFLICT OF INTEREST THAT GUARANTEES THEY'LL KEEP YOU ON MEDS FOREVER)

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And is it wrong to ask on a first date what meds the other person is on? I'm thinking back to some times that were very confusing, and realizing I may have been talking to a differently medicated person at different times...

Posted by HVY MTL on Dec 10, 2008 4:53 PM
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Saucy McSaucepants

No It is NOT wrong to ask that on the 1st date! I wish I would have done that!!!

Posted by Saucy McSaucepants on Dec 10, 2008 4:58 PM
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Interesting admission on your part.

People show and feel passions in so many different ways. Part of why I don't understand how anti depressants work on people who are so different in emotional needs and feelings?

Are you a wall puncher? Or do you talk yourself out of it because it makes more work for you to repair? That doesn't mean you're not emotional or passionate. it means you're smart.
Message me!

Posted by Cynthia on Dec 10, 2008 4:56 PM
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I can honestly say that I have tried EVERY anti-depressant there is and nothing has ever really worked for me. Sure they work for a while, but then your body gets used to them (just like every other drug). Now that I am pregnant, I have stopped taking the anti-anxiety meds that I was on and it's been kind of hard, but worth it. I am experiencing REAL (although hormonally challenged at the moment) emotions and having to DEAL with them on my own. It's making me more creative I think. I spend most of my day remembering to breathe correctly and stop and take things in more slowly. If you really need them and they work for you, then more power to you and you're probably one of the few people that they actually DO work for....but if you can manage without then guess what? Congratulations...you're YOU!!! :)

Posted by TONI on Dec 10, 2008 5:04 PM
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julia cool boots

i'm the only female in my family (3 generations) NOT on an anti-depressant.

and oddly, i'm probably the most emotional person of all of us and would be the one, if we were in some sort of emotional line-up, to be pegged as needing one. but they're just not for me. i cry a lot. i mean, more than anyone i know. but usually, it's from happiness, nostaligia, laughter or for other good reasons. (or when i'm really mad, which isn't particularly convenient in trying to express anger or frustration.) i'm rarely crying from sadness, so i kind of like it/welcome it. i can't imagine what it'd be like to not have those feelings (as i have them now. not in a watered down or altered way.).

but i thank the Lord for anti-depressants because if my mom, sister and grandmother weren't all on them, i'd probably have to start!

Posted by julia cool boots on Dec 10, 2008 11:28 PM
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First belly-laugh of the day. Thanks. :-)

Posted by HVY MTL on Dec 11, 2008 8:02 AM
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julia cool boots

any time! did you watch the video of the future american idol kids (in my blog)? that's another good one!

Posted by julia cool boots on Dec 11, 2008 10:23 AM
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I'm not on meds. Don't believe in them. I am the way I am because I was born that way. :-)

Posted by .Sara. on Dec 10, 2008 11:41 PM
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